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Jaded. Fragmented. Fallen.
Always Rising.
Sunday, January 8, 2006
03:00 p.m.
the leaves of time
slowly fade as
the petals drop.
forgotten is the life
of love,
left behind are the memories
of pain
and again you learn to walk.
the scars on your wingds
keep you from flying
but
at least you're smiling again.
-alysia-
Sunday, January 8, 2006
02:56 p.m.
unheard are the ones labelled
mistaken
i'm sorry but, this is no longer
your
life. instead, i'll use you-
create a whole.
partial,
is how you come together.
the pieces digging
deeper
until you no longer
breathe.
the blood becoming more
frequent
than the laughter you once
gave
me. bu you smile in this
insanity
for life has created you such a
smile
that once life is spent by you
you
buy it back.
the pain never ending and so it is
you
that chains me, your claws releasing my
pain
in a never ending crave for
death.
-alysia-
Sunday, January 8, 2006
02:52 p.m.
final,
the door bars.
closed again.
the search continues on
the pain-
unbroke by images of you.
sorry to ever find
love-
the word bitter with disdain
dripping with
blood.
no need to worry
the bandages will heal
and i'll have another excuse again.
no need to care,
i'll always cover for you.
no one needs to know-
it's always
you and me.
now, just the mirror
cracked-
the shards only stained
with the blood of
a healed
you.
-alysia-
Sunday, January 8, 2006
02:50 p.m.
truth,
like a slap in the face
cracks my shell.
open,
i am able to see the world
but not all its truths.
its light
blinding me...i'm forced to step back,
in fear of being
burned.
but doubts create an image i cannot
shake,
the blood in which i use to paint
does not seem right.
searching,
i reach out and find myself staring
at you.
-alysia-
Sunday, January 8, 2006
02:47 p.m.
wilted,
no one must ever know.
a promise
forbidden
by a past hidden; esacaped
by you.
but me,
it has trapped-
me,
it has chained
blood staining
your reality.
sorry to ignore my duites,
i'm just not
who you once told me
i was.
the scars not covered-
my eyes like hell,
screaming of the pain
you let me
cause,
never again innocent
and with you-
i should have known.
-alysia-
Sunday, January 8, 2006
02:45 p.m.
chipped perfection,
a chance to be whole once again
i jump-
death, the passion
a chance to be freed
with only a single battle scar;
a memory
left with vengeance.
never again
i promise myself
but there is only so much
the darkness
can nurture.
the fallen stars
hold no promise anymore-
the blood no longer
tasteful
but pleading for more life-
a chance to reign
alone.
-alysia-
Sunday, January 8, 2006
02:44 p.m.
never ending solitude
too quickly interrupted
by companionship.
the hate of the chains
soon closing in.
the blood
pressuring...
let me in.
don't be afraid.
i really care.
i won't hurt you.
they all beckon
until the mind goes insane
and all you can hear
is the taunting
of what couldn't have ever been.
-alysia-
Sunday, January 8, 2006
02:40 p.m.
the innocent wondering,
the little gurl
that you felt so connected to...
ha,
she laughs-
mocks you.
once again, a stranger fallen
for the kiss
of an angel
in love with
thoughts of death.
-alysia-
Sunday, January 8, 2006
02:39 p.m.
my dreams,
like the clouds have vanished.
instead,
insane fighting.
the fantasies
of pain.
blood cloaked
in everything i'm not
but my thirst isn't caught.
i need more
and am craving
the coolness
of steel.
Go ahead,
send me away.
my eyes
have already glazed
and soon,
i no longer will remain.
-alysia-
Sunday, January 8, 2006
02:33 p.m.
once thought of memories,
stories
you would've liked to teach.
but no,
they only cover the truth.
No
i will not conform.
the blood
is right here on my lips-
the kiss
of a true love
that won't ever walk away.
-alysia-
Sunday, January 8, 2006
02:32 p.m.
voices yell,
the music blares,
someone sings,
someone screams
the tv gets turned up
(a little louder)
voices rise
and somewhere in the midst of this,
a little girl cries.
-alysia-
Sunday, January 8, 2006
02:31 p.m.
like a dream
i scream out
tangled in the sweat and sheets.
but the nightmare
doesn't end there for me
it continues past
the closed eyes
and no one dares to trun their ears
towards my tears.
haunted
i'm stained with the venom
of a life once wished for.
-alysia-
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