Jaded. Fragmented. Fallen.
Always Rising.

Monday, January 2, 2006
03:51 p.m.
Wrong
i was wrong
to ever betray you,
to demote
what we had to
nothing more.
i was wrong
without realizing
what we were together,
for even the stars
appeared envious
of how our reality
tasted magical.
i was wrong
to ever turn my back
on you,
to ever not appreciate
the loneliness
that was worth you.
i was wrong
to ever leave you.
And now,
i am wrong
to want you back,
to ask for one more chance.
i am wrong
to think that
i want to be with you
i am wrong
to not want anyone else,
to be always dreaming of you.
i am wrong
to think that
i love you
but i am right
to hear my heart
speaking it true.
-alysia-

Monday, January 2, 2006
03:47 p.m.
Fallen Kingdom (for Doug)
weak,
i realize that i'm still bound with
one of your chains.
all the memories are on your side
because all the bad
was worth the pain.
i would've stayed with you forever
but i guess you weren't
strong enough to see
what you were giving up.
it hasn't yet been a year
and still it's that cold, frozen morning
where i'm looking upon our
kingdom
sparkling in the love
that i knows we still cherish
but dead lay the soldiers around it
and the blood
taints
the thoughts in our minds
creating
the barrier
that tore our kingdom down.
but in the morning sun
a single note
is heard
and a hopeful
is seen
whispering the songs of
what has been.
-alysia-

Monday, January 2, 2006
03:44 p.m.
needed,
she turns her back
on what she
could be
only to become
what she
never dreamed.
the lost hope,
soon fading from
her eyes
and growing
into her spirit,
and it becomes
the very breath
that keeps her alive.
alive
but dead
for her only
yearning
is for what her
heart
already has.
-alysia-

Monday, January 2, 2006
03:36 p.m.
Life,
the living of the flower
which fades
as the sun
increases.
The passion
of the heart
no longer continues on
for the petals
have fallen
and lay crushed
by the hand
that carried them-
the hand
that protected them-
Never alive
always dead.
Leaving deceived,
the tears crawl across
the floor,
carefully cut-
carefully undead
but left
bleeding forevermore.
-alysia-