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Jaded. Fragmented. Fallen.
Always Rising.
Sunday, January 1, 2006
04:11 p.m.
Protecting The Guilty
Hidden pressures,
she's known them all her life.
she remembers how they
burnt her skin
when she just couldn't remember.
but now?
now they're plain,
they wake her from her
happy life
and force her to accept what happened
and protect those that hid
the truth from her,
knowing the tears would return.
-alysia-
Saturday, December 31, 2005
08:10 p.m.
The coffee,
the way the poetry turned this way-
remembered is that single moment
sitting on your warm floor,
the light flooding in
overcoming me
as you lay there
unaware of my breathing.
Magic
illuminated the room
i couldn't find my way out
but never wanted to.
it was to you
that my heart was reaching out for
and it was to you
that i was living for.
Unaware was not only you
but my mind
as the world rose up
and shone
in the early hours
of that night.
-alysia-
Saturday, December 31, 2005
08:07 p.m.
Facing Jon
The door's locked
and now,
i'm forced to face you-
there's no way out.
turning,
i find you holding me
and it's like the
6 months
have vanished into the blur
of color
that captures your smile.
i'm forced to forget
all the hurt
and i cannot find a reason
to explain
why the love
hasn't disappeared.
As you hold me,
nothing moves
nothing changes
but everything has-
it's just all what my heart
has already known.
-alysia-
Saturday, December 31, 2005
08:05 p.m.
doubt,
it clouds her brain-
remembered are all those days,
the nights it rained.
Laughter was the melody heard
and yet,
she wonders-
was she really ever happy?
the actions seemed consistent
but so was the pain.
You
you saw her there and left
and now it is
you that has no story,
no part
in her death.
So as the blood slowly
cries
over her body,
mourning the defeat of happiness
it is you
that is haunted by
her dream never come true.
-alysia-
Saturday, December 31, 2005
08:03 p.m.
So, this is what
it's like to cower in the shadows,
to hate the very essence
of myself.
i never knew this would end
with me naked,
i always thought it would be us
together-
wrong again.
go figure.
this shadow overcomes everything
that is my heart-
go figure.
why should i be surprised?
it's the same thing,
a stronger hurt,
a bigger cut
and more
restlessness
for it is
i
that is left to drown
in my own blood.
-alysia-
Saturday, December 31, 2005
07:59 p.m.
Too late for color,
her dream has lived black 'n' white
too late for drama
her life has set that.
Tasteless
but yet removed
her mind lingers with no regrets,
only one hope-
the lil gurl's wish
she could just never forget.
The young heart
that she remembers,
no longer breathes
but its passion is still found
beating throughout her veins
and it is this simple
drop
which buys life to taste this sweet.
Nothing more chains her spirit
but the addiction of the blade
which has held her dear.
-alysia-
Saturday, December 31, 2005
07:56 p.m.
The Voice Of My Mind (for Jon)
Never forgotten-
always hoping
and yet hating-
every vividness is you
and i'm addicted-
there is no way out.
you have become my mind
my voice;
the expectation i have of myself.
You are what completes
and yet,
tears me apart.
You have become my breath
and even as the sky loses the sun,
i know i'll never
lose the passion of you
for you have entered me
and become my blood-
the words i etch in stone,
never to fade away
and always to keep me going.
You are the love of my life
and i refuse
to let you go.
-alysia-
Saturday, December 31, 2005
07:53 p.m.
Fate vs. Destiny (for Jay)
Addicted,
a simple breath of your cologne.
Never forgotten
is that time you wouldn't let me go,
but had to-
fate had something different planned
than two hearts
believing in the same hope.
And torn apart was how
we ended...
but not before we stole that dance-
we stole that moment from
those stars.
And now i lie addicted
and like a whore
i find myself dirty 'n' incomplete
without your touch.
Come back to me-
find the path with lies broken-
no longer let fate
decide our destiny,
finally allow our hearts
to relive the magic
of that night.
Dance with me
and paint the picture
that your mind has lived for,
don't give up on me...
create your own destiny.
-alysia-
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