Sunday, October 2, 2005
06:05 p.m.
i need sumthing more than the casual phone calls.
i need sumthing more than the distant glances.
i need sumthing more than you can give me.
and you can't even open your eyes to realize this.
there is only one path the heart is meant to walk,
tho the river winds
and isn't always right with direction,
footsteps will finally be seen
on smooth shore,
and one day you might turn around and finally look me in the eyes.

that day you'll see.
you'll notice
that wat i need is more than me.
-alysia-

Sunday, October 2, 2005
01:50 p.m.
i'm gone.
couldn't you already feel this?
can't you speak

yes, i heard you-
all the i love you's.
all the roses.

why should that mean anything.
it's just a ploy in a carefully thought out plot
society is out to get you-

it already has you in its claws.

do you think you can leave
my memory will never escape you.
no matter how many beds in which i've had to live-
there will only be that one chance for you,

there was just sumthing too innocent about you.

how you feel the love within you.
telling you that this is right
that i'm your soulmate


there is no love in my eyes,
there is only blood on my chin.
i've tasted you-

your blood is weak and could never fully satisfy me.

-alysia-

Sunday, October 2, 2005
10:25 a.m.
Again, you lean forward and taunt me...
promise to create me whole-
to take away my scars.
You act like you're the best thing for me...
like you know me...
like you belong inside my head.

ha. you wouldn't last.
the sight of blood-
you wouldn't last-
there are no pieces of love in these eyes,
you fool yourself.

you're digging yourself your own grave.
i have not put words in your face.
your soul is far too good for mine.
your love is only figurative-
you need love
like a substance to replace breathe
it's wat you think you need to keep walking
your love is nothing
but the blood that i'll leave in the end.
-alysia-